“Simple” and “Simplify” said a friend to me. “You keep saying those words.”
We were walking along the beach two weeks ago, on our catch up ‘walk and talk’ session, when she pointed out what I’d been saying throughout our conversation.
I hadn’t noticed but as she pointed it out, I realised that a lot of the things I’d been doing recently where in ‘simplifying’ my life. Making space for the new to manifest after a period of deep transformation. It’s what I have felt deep down to do – get rid of anything that’s unnecessary, old or of a dense vibration, things that pull me down rather than light me up, things that reflect the ‘old’ me that I want to leave behind. Close that door and open up to the new.
There was no strong guidance, no channelled messages or angel whispers in my ear. It’s what I’ve felt intuitively to do, without even labelling it or striving towards it.
Donating old clothes, throwing out old things, minimising and downsizing.
One thing that has been bugging me for a while has been my website. It just didn’t feel as light to me as what it had done. The main header picture was taken in a house I lived in over a year and a half ago, I liked the picture but it felt like an old me. Especially with the bleached blonde hair.
With the focus over this past 2 years working on my internal self, my energy has shifted. I’ve grown up, no longer the adult ‘child’ held back by past conditioning, I’m growing into a woman. And with that, it means my body and appearance is changing too. I’ve softened (not in a flabby way, in a womanly way, as I pull away from the masculine tomboy energy I’ve grown up as). I also feel this pull to embrace my natural self. No longer excessively dying my hair to lighten myself to gain attention, I’m opening up to my inner light shining through and trusting that the hair colour I was born with is perfect for me.
Yes, I’m changing, internally and externally. Which is where the conflict with my website came in. I want to change the photographs but I keep hearing ‘Springtime’ as I consider new photos. So I had decided to hold off and trust that Springtime will be a beautiful ’emerging’ energy to celebrate my changes with some new photos.
I had made peace with dealing with the heavier energy I felt around my website, knowing I’d change it in 6 months time.
I’d let go of trying to control it. I’d let go of the voice in my head saying its not perfect.
Letting go, surrendering, therein created space for the Universe to intervene in the form of Google. Yes Google.
As more and more people use mobile phones to search the Internet, Google’s ranking system now looks for websites that are mobile friendly.
Turned out, my website was very mobile unfriendly.
I trust that whatever I share gets to the people that it can benefit it so this wasn’t a huge concern, however, when I felt more into it (not from a place of fear but love), it felt that the lighter vibration was to make some changes now, so Google can help support me in getting the energy out there.
Making some changes now felt waaayyyyyy better to me. It made me smile because it was a great chance to simplify my website – remove anything that felt heavy and to have it as simple as possible, so that when I do get new photos taken I can buildup from the base of lots of newly created white space.
Plus the white space feels much nicer than the grey background I had. In a strange way, the grey to me represented my shadow aspects, the darkness I was in. Darkness will always be there, so it felt fitting to keep the grey, just minimize it (maybe one day there will be very little darkness, for now, I’m still working through it). The grey design also represented Ego. When I first started blogging I felt in order for anyone to take me seriously I needed a fancy design. And so I spent a lot of money trying to counteract my low self-worth (spending money to feel worthy, rather than feeling worthy).
Now, I’m blogging because I want to be in it, it’s first and foremost for me an avenue of self-exploration, so it doesn’t really matter what it looks like. I just want a white blank screen so I can explore writing and allow the words and energy to do what they want to do.
It went from this:
Plain and simple.
It’s what I was as a young girl. Simplistic clothes, no makeup, very little jewellry or adornments. Just me and my shiny brown hair with a happy smile. Confident in my own skin.
Funny that I’ve gone on the journey to find my true self and I’m going back to what I was like as a little girl – allowing my essence to shine through and do the talking for me rather than the external ‘modifications’ or extravagant clothes.
So here I am, stripped back to basics, in myself and my website. Yes, I’ll admit that there’s the voice in my head saying people will judge this and think its boring, that I’m boring, but following the feeling is now more important to me than the persistent voice.
It feels good. I feel good.
It’s more ‘me’.
And nothing beats feeling and knowing that truth.
My message for you:
Allow your true essence to shine through, the natural beauty that you are. In all that you do.
Please don’t hide.
Lots of love
p.s. I would like to give out a big shout out and thank you to David at ClickWP. David is my WordPress/Website/Technical guy – technical ‘stuff’ is not my strong point so in the interests in conserving my energy for what comes natural and easy to me, David helps me out on the technical side. He’s been fantastic to work with in changing my website and I highly recommend working with him if you have any technical support needs.